These past few days have been the worst of my life.
I wake up in the morning feeling happy and cheerful.
But it seems that every night,i got news about her that will break my heart.
And now,she hates me,she freaking hates me.
I admit,i was paranoid,i was stupid,i was,i was just being my idiotic self.
I really need someone to talk to,but i just can't let it out.
I just want a listening ear.
I feel like kicking myself everyday.
At first,i was very happy to see you,i was very happy.
But i just couldn't get any words to come out.
Yes,that was my fault,that was my mistake.
The second time i saw you while going out.
I was freaking excited,i was very happy to see you.
I even talked to you.
But then,i saw you with another guy.
I asked you out before,a week in advance,i remembered,but you said you were busy.
I asked you a few times before.
But still,it was either you were lazy,tired or had plans.
But this guy,asked you two days before and he got to go out with you.
How was that supposed to make me feel ?
I was heartbroken.
I just didn't know what to think.
Then,after that,i tried to apologize.
But to no avail.
I asked you to hang out,i texted you,but you didn't reply.
But you asked someone else,reply someone else if you were coming down.
Yes,it was the same in the end,but still.
I mean,why couldn't you text me back ?
What did i do wrong for you to ignore me ?
And when i asked you,you got upset.
But, who could blame you for that ?
But at least,put yourself in my shoes.
Could you put my feelings into consideration ?
I'm not asking for much.
I always tried to talk to you,trying to keep the conversation alive.
But its either you don't reply or reply half-heartedly.
But even with that half-hearted reply,i was already happy.
Just to get a reply.
I tried to understand you.
But when i asked,you wouldn't say anything or won't reply at all.
What am I supposed to do ?
I'm not trying to put the blame on you,but could you understand me ?
I really like you,to the extent of love.
That's why I'm acting this way.
But i guess,you don't have the same feelings for me.
What should i do ?
What can i do ?
Who could i turn to ?
Who can answer these questions.
I know its impossible,but,who could possibly tell me that everything was going to be alright ?
That everything will get back to the way it was ?
I feel lost,frustrated with myself,regretful.
I'm just trying to get back up when you knocked me down.
But how could i ?
I wake up in the morning feeling happy and cheerful.
But it seems that every night,i got news about her that will break my heart.
And now,she hates me,she freaking hates me.
I admit,i was paranoid,i was stupid,i was,i was just being my idiotic self.
I really need someone to talk to,but i just can't let it out.
I just want a listening ear.
I feel like kicking myself everyday.
At first,i was very happy to see you,i was very happy.
But i just couldn't get any words to come out.
Yes,that was my fault,that was my mistake.
The second time i saw you while going out.
I was freaking excited,i was very happy to see you.
I even talked to you.
But then,i saw you with another guy.
I asked you out before,a week in advance,i remembered,but you said you were busy.
I asked you a few times before.
But still,it was either you were lazy,tired or had plans.
But this guy,asked you two days before and he got to go out with you.
How was that supposed to make me feel ?
I was heartbroken.
I just didn't know what to think.
Then,after that,i tried to apologize.
But to no avail.
I asked you to hang out,i texted you,but you didn't reply.
But you asked someone else,reply someone else if you were coming down.
Yes,it was the same in the end,but still.
I mean,why couldn't you text me back ?
What did i do wrong for you to ignore me ?
And when i asked you,you got upset.
But, who could blame you for that ?
But at least,put yourself in my shoes.
Could you put my feelings into consideration ?
I'm not asking for much.
I always tried to talk to you,trying to keep the conversation alive.
But its either you don't reply or reply half-heartedly.
But even with that half-hearted reply,i was already happy.
Just to get a reply.
I tried to understand you.
But when i asked,you wouldn't say anything or won't reply at all.
What am I supposed to do ?
I'm not trying to put the blame on you,but could you understand me ?
I really like you,to the extent of love.
That's why I'm acting this way.
But i guess,you don't have the same feelings for me.
What should i do ?
What can i do ?
Who could i turn to ?
Who can answer these questions.
I know its impossible,but,who could possibly tell me that everything was going to be alright ?
That everything will get back to the way it was ?
I feel lost,frustrated with myself,regretful.
I'm just trying to get back up when you knocked me down.
But how could i ?
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